2020 sucked. Lots of death. Lots of grief. Lots of loss. Lots of frustration. But there was a silver lining. For the first time ever, I finished a Bible in a Year plan on YouVersion. I’ve probably tried to do this at least ten times, but never stuck with it. There was always a reason to stop, but if I were to be honest, the reason was always rooted in the fact I have poor willpower (irony, hahaha) when it comes to my personal life. I’ve always excelled at work, but my energy was always sucked dry there.
This year, I took a step back from a job I absolutely loved because I knew I needed to make some changes in how I approach life. Throughout my whole life, outside of work, I’ve been a chronic unfinisher. Discipline has been hard to come by. I’ve always viewed myself as a total failure in life because of my lack of personal discipline, and for the first time, I’m starting to see myself through a different lens, one that I think is more aligned with how God sees me. I’m a very long way away from where I want to be, but for the first time ever, I see a path forward.
I don’t expect 2021 to be an amazing year…but I’m hopeful that it will be a transformative year for me.